I think he found it out. and he is kinda asking alot, still not.
a bit hidden. My answers are not lies, but not the truth.
If I had to lie, I would do it.
Maybe he is worried.
Or maybe t just looks like it because he don't get his drugs till fucking friday.
Just a little bread today. Are going to jog again, tonight.
looking forward to it. Need it now.
Its snow outside, that could be a problem.
Feeling actually great, but counting the days to a certain breakdown.
Afraid to sleep, maybe I'll turn rotten.
And ugly and stupid, or to face a day I can't handle
I'm afriad he'll ask why. Why, fucking why all the fucking time.
Why?
1. it stops me from eating too much.
2. I don't think.
3. I really get an incredible fantacy.
4. If I can't control other things, this is something I can. It gives me power.
5. it feels great have that self dicipline.
6. I'm GONNA LOOK GREAT.
that's just some.
I feel for a cigarett,
but he is sleeping on them.
that sucks.
he looks so peaceful there.
eyes closed.
"I know why people kill the one they love.
thats the only way to obsess another person".
I wish he could stay that way forever.
peaceful. safe.
